Tim Lambesis used the band's Facebook page to apologize
Tim Lambesis, frontman of the band As I Lay Dying, has released a statement for the first time since his release from prison .
Lambesis was sentenced to six years for plotting the murder of his wife in 2014. He pleaded guilty and confessed to hiring a hitman to pose as a police officer and kill her.
In December 2016, the lead singer was released from prison and now, a year later, he used the band's official page to release a statement apologizing to everyone.
"Words cannot express how sorry I am for the pain I caused. There is no excuse for what I did, and now I look at the person I've become with as much disdain as you do.".
First, I want to apologize to my ex-wife and my incredible children for my actions. Not a day goes by that I don't want to undo the damage I caused, and out of respect for them, I will not speak about them again (now or in the future). I also ask that everyone reading this respect their privacy and protect them from any negativity or anger directed at me. I am solely responsible for everything that happened.
To my family, I apologize for the trauma I caused you and continue to cause you. This is an eternal sentence you suffer because of me. I also want to apologize to my friends whom I betrayed by hiding everything and all the difficulties I caused for those who worked with me. Bandmates, road crew, managers, lawyers, agents, record label, and everyone else who suffered from countless changes caused by my actions. While they were dealing with the situation after I was arrested, I treated them wrongly. I know I can't undo the animosity I brought about, but I hope I can fix everything with time.
To all those who admired me as an artist, I disappointed them in so many ways. I tried to show a different side of myself to the public while feeding a horrible monster inside. I wrote songs about the person I wanted to be, not about who I really was. I was living a life without empathy and saw everything through a self-motivating lens.
I can't say what life will be like from now on because everything is very different and I'm still learning. Music has always been and always will be a part of me and has helped me through difficult situations on my journey. However, this apology isn't to divulge anything. Rumors circulate and that's something I've learned to accept, but this apology is just that, an apology to everyone around me.
I remained silent publicly all this time because it seemed like the right way to help me overcome this. Today is the first day I can apologize to the court without asking for anything in return, as I have completed my legal sentence. I want to make it clear that no amount of time in prison could undo what I did wrong. I don't think I deserve a second chance, and I'm not asking for anyone's trust. The way people think of me makes sense, and only time will tell if my remorse will become something better. Over the past five years, the consequences of my actions have been greater than just writing a letter. Therefore, I intend to continue apologizing through words and actions from now on.
Thanks for reading,
Tim.
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