Jacoby Shaddix , from Papa Roach , spoke in an interview last Wednesday, the 17th, about "going off the rails" during the coronavirus pandemic.
The vocalist, who stopped drinking alcohol in 2012, revealed that he recently slipped up on his path to sobriety because he was "depressed and stuck in this feeling."
"Just to be frank with you, during the pandemic, I went off the rails and was smoking marijuana," Shaddix said on the Hardcore Humanism With Dr. Mike podcast.
“I just got depressed and just stuck in this feeling. And I wasn’t working in an active recovery program, and I found myself with a joint in my mouth, you know? And yeah, it’s legal in California, and yeah, it’s a remedy for some people, but it’s not for me,” he said.
“Whenever I put any kind of mind-altering substance into my body, there’s a veil that falls over me and sort of isolates me from the world. It isolates me from the potential of who I can become and puts me in a space of inaction.”
The vocalist also said that he was honest when he went back into recovery. He asked for help and managed to get out of the situation before it got worse. Initially, from his perspective, everything was fine because at least he wasn't drinking. “I knew I was getting close. I told my guys, 'Well, at least I didn't drink.' And they said, 'Well, yeah, that's good. That's good, Cobe. But you were heading straight for it.'”
Furthermore, the star says that accepting this self-awareness was difficult, but it was good. "It's really about understanding that I was feeding the big bad wolf. I was just doing the wrong things."
Shaddix added that last month marked nine years since he last drank alcohol and stated he was proud of his progress. “It gave me the opportunity to try to become fully human, because I was totally subhuman as an alcoholic, as a drinker, and it was really a mess.” Finally, he said he will start attending meetings again.
Meanwhile, Papa Roach pleaded on social media with UK Prime Minister Boris Johnson and Home Secretary Priti Patel to release vinyl records held up in customs due to Brexit.
As the band revealed on Twitter, copies of their new album, Greatest Hits, have been stuck in UK customs for over a week and are at risk of not reaching fans on the release date this Friday, the 19th.
